My Parents

This isn't easy to say, why. Because things have happen these past few months. I recently loss both my parents, it hurts so hard, my dad passed 9 days after my birthday of last yr. Oct. 2014. that day, wasn't a great day for me and my family at all. it was unexpected. two months have passed and Dec. 2014 my mom have passed away from cancer. I know they are not in pain anymore, but it still hurts that they are gone, My step mom has been so great to me. and knows what I am going through. My parents are my guardian Angels, my kids too. I love and miss so much, I know they would want me to move on, and have a happy life. I have my good days, and not so good days. today was a cheerful great day for me, last weekend was a great weekend, spend time with love of my life, Javier, and Sunday spend the day with my step mom and sister and her bf. they helped me pick out a brand new laptop. And I love it, I can now do homework at home now, Every once in awhile I stay at the school library. Like I said, good and bad days. And one thing I want in more than ever is to have a miracle. I would love to have a son and daughter. and a great husband too. I keep telling myself this every yr, when is it my turn to be happy with that, then I realize that and need to stop saying that. every now and then I still say it, but I am trying not too. you know. I hope that when my children ask me about there grandparents, I will tell them they would be so happy to see that their daughter me, is very happy and wanted to see me have a great life. and watch my children grow up. And that not only they are my guardian angels, but they are also your guardian angels too. I love you mom and dad. and miss you both so much... love you always...